Good for you, Crazy!

I was at the commissary today and this woman bumped into me...I said "excuse me, my bad" she looked me up and down and was like " you are excused, how rude." i replied, "no what is rude is you, I didn't see you so I said excuse me, my bad, now how is that rude?" she went on to pull rank "well, I don't have time to sit here and argue with you, my husband is a Sgt in the Army and he's getting pinned today I have to go, I don't have time to argue with the likes of you."  I was like, " so what does that have to do about the price of tea in china? Since you are wearing your husband's rank on your shoulders, let me give you something, my husband is a Sergant first class in the army and he's not getting pinned today, but you sure will with that attitude of yours if you don't get out of my face with that garbage!"  Needless to say she apologised-half heartedly and walked away.

I was thinking to myself, good for you, crazy...cuz both of us were crazy to even go there. I never do, but I became the I DID...because she was really effin rude!  I hate this place.

I hate these women who actually run around like that and act like that and today it seems like I did the same thing...can any of this ever be forgiven, I don't want to become one of those...and now I am guilty.

She urked me and it was provoked though I swear...she didn't have to go there with that. Who cares?  Last time I checked it was their career. Not ours.

Speaking of the career front though, I have applied to another position, I am negotiating my salary and my former employers will be surprised because it seems like the contract is the new contract at the same store I was in. Yay for me. New bosses...same people.  I wonder how their faces are going to look when I show up in there being the head bitch in charge?  That is if I take it. The job does not start until April though, but the vacancy for it was announced last week.  I have time.  Lots of time, its not urgent for me to go to work, I just want to go back to working and doing what I love to do.

Excited about the possibilities, who knows maybe another position will come to strike my fancy and I won't go back to that place again...but the offer the new company is giving me is almost too irresistable...almost.  It's way more than I expected, but the work is alot more than what I am used to. It will take alot of due diligence and prayer because I don't want to be one of those people who go back to a place that has an agenda or a grudge to carry with me to work...so I am glad I have until January to decide to take the position and name my pay-to an extent.  I also need to make sure that I am 100% going to go in there with a great outlook and with an open mind and heart, otherwise I will become just like they are and not be who I am.  I am a company minded individual and a team player, I don't like self-serving, coniving, backstabbing or shady people when it comes to business so I have alot to ponder.  The new contract though is offering me to be their boss, I fit the requirements to be a logistics director, so that is great.  I have to think and pray.  I have to pray real hard so that my heart is right in whatever decision I choose.

Maybe this is God's way of telling me that it will be okay. The new contractors have been very kind and very eager to have me join their crew. I am excited..but I will have to decide by January. My husband says to go for it, he says it would be great to see their faces, and have them for once walking on eggshells, but that is not what I am about. I would only take the job if I could give it 100% and also not take anything away from them unduly or do anything to undermine or be just as low as they are.  That is going to be hard.

Ok I have rambled enough.

What should I do?